Cold..
Soon I think I shall put a link up to my live journal..which rarely gets used..but Im thinking it would be a good place to put my short stories...Ill think about that :)
Im rather bored today infact, as well as shivering. Now Ive finished my late breakfast Ill get on and do some more writing while Beccy is sleeping, which reminds me..cute photo alert!..I took this pic lastnight of her sleeping..and another of Amy sucking her thumb, even tho shes 6..awww...Beccy first...
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Answers...
Act your age? Or younger?. ...er..younger defo
Born on what day of the week? Sunday..10.30am
Chore you hate? All of them!
Dad’s name? John
Essential makeup item? Lip Gloss*smacks lips*
Favorite actor? Male? ..Jonny Depp...Orlando Bloom..Tim Curry Female? dont really have a fave
Gold or silver? Gold..Gold..can only wear gold too
Hometown? Middlesbrough
Instruments you play? Piano..alittle..guitar a little(my dad was in a band)
Job title? Officially? Home Maker Extrordinair! Generally? Lackey...slave
Kids? 3
Living arrangements? 3 Bedroomed House Gardens
Mum’s name? Jan
Need? Lots and lots of money. And a new man
Overnight hospital stays? 3 times giving birth
Phobias? wasps
Quote you like? 'out of two evils Id always chose the one I hadnt tried yet'..Mae West
Religious affiliation? Pagan/wiccan
Siblings? one sister..younger
Time you wake up? 5.30am...my son rises with the son!
Unique talent? Empath
Vegetable you refuse to eat? Sprouts
Worst habit? Flirting
X-rays you’ve had? teeth
Yummy food you make?Everything!!
Zodiac Sign? Libra 8)
Glastonbury...
But alas..I couldnt..so Ive been searching, for bands I 'would' have loved to been there to see..here is my list...
Hothouse Flowers...remember these!?...lol
Levellers Acoustic Set...I know..there old but I still like them
Kings of Leon
Oasis...not my thing but ...*shrugs*
Scissor Sisters...are 'ok'
Black Eyed Peas...fantastic
Paul McCartney ...not sure
Joss Stone ...fab
James Brown...
Supergrass...amazing
Morrissey...unbelivable
Muse Superduper
The Stands...cool
Badly Drawn Boy...ok
Snow Patrol ...new..sound intersting
Franz Ferdinand..love them
Goldfrapp ..nice
Chemical Brothers...yep
Damien Rice ...very chill out
Basement Jaxx ...good to boogie too
Razorlight...fabaroonie
Keane ...amazing
Von Bondies...cool
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The Outside World
LOL...First I had to drop Beccy off at my neighbours so I could go for a run..its been ages and yes..im aching now..need a rubdown I think :wink:
Picked her up..dived into the shower and ran to the localshop to pick up some essential items....Trifle..Warm just out of the oven bread rolls...you know...things I couldnt live with out. This is why I couldnt do the no-carb thing for long!..I love bread!...I think I could live with out carbs for 3 weeks..but then..oh dear'that time of the month'...would be a nightmare!...I neeeed bread..and mashed potato with wholegrain mustard...lol
and pasta...altho Im eating wholegrain stuff now...white bread is still adictive when your hormones are swinging. I know Scubadiva and Shespeicies will have something to say..lol..I wish I had their will power.
:P
Monday Monday Monday
I have no clue!..lol..but who cares!...lets just enjoy the moment shall we. Spoke to lots of friends..good friends on-line yesterday and thismorning. I have no idea what this log is about..like I dont have a point!..wait...the point is I feel happy today..something to celebrate!.
Creative juices flowing now...much much better..and soon the moon will be full and I can dance naked in the forest..lol..kidding...working on something right now...aww..babys hungry...LUNCH TIME :D
Book List...
I did manage to pick the following books, In no particular order...depends on my mood as to which Im reading..studying..using. At the moment tho, Im re-reading...
The Witches' Goddess: The Feminine Principle of Divinity by Janet Farrar, Stewart Farrar
so thats at the top:)..ok here goes...
Hedge Witch: Guide to Solitary Witchcraft - Rae Beth
Druid Priestess - Emma Restall Orr
Druid Mysteries: Ancient Mysteries for the 21st Century
Philip Carr-Gomm
Solitary Witch: The Ultimate Book of Shadows for the New Generation - Silver RavenWolf
To Light a Sacred Flame: Practical WitchCraft for the Millennium - Silver RavenWolf
To Ride a Silver Broomstick: New Generation Witchcraft
Silver RavenWolf
To Stir a Magick Cauldron: Witch's Guide to Casting and Conjuring- Silver RavenWolf
The Fragrant Pharmacy- Valerie Ann Worwood
The Family Guide to Homeopathy - Andrew Lockie
New Herb Bible: How to Use Herbs to Revolutionise the Way You Work, Play, Sleep, Feel and Heal- Earl Mindell
A Witch Alone: Thirteen Moons to Master Natural Magic
Marian Green..(a good one for you ratmagic)
:wink:
Blog Thingys..
Had to change that music tho!...good memories but really...makes my head hurt!..
Newmusic is ..Jet - Cold Hard Bitch...loving them right now..Infact I think Ill go look for their album on Kazza..lol
Pizza for tea(dinner if your an american:)...proper lazy day. Ill be back later no doubt, have some building to do ..and some things to make for...this place..[url=]http://www.geocities.com/city...[/url]
Its a game..a Role Playing game..like Dungeons&Dragons...hehe..anyway..hope you all have a really nice and relaxed sunday :wink:
Cant Resist a Quiz!...
oh and book recomentations coming real soon ratmagic!..promise:)
What attracts people to you?
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Whats it all About?
The 'offical' name..I would be happy with is..Solitary Eclectic Pagan. Meaning..I always work alone..I am a mix of different elements of wicca..not strict in the pantheon I use ect...and Pagan speaks for itself..ok here is the list..
Pagans
# The divine is both male and female, equally and in balance. There is a Goddess and a God.
#We should respect nature.
#Everyone is entitled to their own informed choice of spiritual path, so long as they harm no one else.
#The Wiccan Rede:'An' it harm none, do what thou will'
# The Law of Threefold Return: 'Whatever you do, be it good or ill, will be returned to you threefold.'
# The seasonal cycle is celebrated through the Eight Sabbats and the Wheel of the Year.
#The cycle of the Triple Goddess is shown through the Lunar cycle.
#We have personal responsibility - our thoughts, feelings, words and actions are our own responsibility.
# We strive for personal developement - we should each work towards being the best that we can.
# We are each our own Priest or Priestess and need no one else to interpret our Gods or our spirituality for us.
#We practise divination, finding knowledge by other than our five senses.
# We practise Magic, making changes by force of will.
# Life continues after death, with the Summerlands and reincarnation.
phew...well I felt it had to be said...Ill post some links later..but I dont want to go on and on..I do not mind questions..infact..I welcome them...
The list is from a nice little book, basic and good for anybody who needs gentle introduction to Wicca....The Real Witches Hand Book by Kate West.....[url=]http://www.amazon.co.uk/exec/...[/url]
:)
Oh yes dont you worry about..me worrying about you!...
So I paced and worried, even rang his mum who, by the way thinks Im a devil worshiping hell queen. So that was a hard conversation.
His mum... 'you dont know where he is?'
Me... 'I thought maybe you heard if the traffic was really bad?...I think its just really busy'
His mum.. 'did you phone the hospital!...No Ill do it!..Ill phone..Ill get Peter(his bro)..Peter will know what to do!..'...*que lots of sobbing and over reacting..shouting for Peter*
Peter.. 'Hello..whats wrong?'
Me.. 'no Pete..nothings wrong I was just wondering if you saw on the news or something...they are really late see'
His Mum(in background).. 'Peter!..put the phone down !..I swear that girl will go to hell...I dont want her on my phone...
:roll: :roll:
Peter.. 'erm..yeah sorry clare..shes abit upset...Ill phone around..ring you back'
Me...'*sighs*...right...thanks
She so pisses me off!...she probably thinks I cursed Martin or something. Its a long story, shes a very, 'godfearing' woman who's son lives with a pagan. She worries about her grandkids going to hell because I wouldnt have them christened..she worries about Martin going to hell because he lives in sin ...bah she should worry about how freaky she behaves! She wont accept me for the things I believe in, She pushes her beliefs in my face ..she used to be more 'tolerant ' of the situation...until last year when our wedding was cancelled, now shes even more paranoid. Why should I get married for other people!..Marrige is for those who wish it. Of course the wedding wasnt even going to be in a church which was the key factor in her disgust. The wedding is another long tale tho..for another day.
Poet stuff
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Saturday
Have to change the music tomorrow tho..not sure how long i can stand it..oh and its got some naughty words in too...um...dont know how that happened*smirks* :wink:
Sex and Shopping
Then after talking on-line with a few friends..bed time...hmm..maybe I shouldnt say what happened. Lets just say..martin got drunk and did things the way..'I'...like it for a change :wink: ..lol.
Im sure you can use your imagination..CP probably knows anyway co I had to borrow his whip*giggles*
So...alittle better today..yes..
Girlie Quiz

Your scent is... Pherose by Realm. A soft scent
that is extremely powerful. You may look like
just another outcast but you are creative and
intelligent. Those who truely know you, love
you and those who don't know you think you're
just a freak or that person they've met before.
You don't like to let many people in but the
few you do are highly privileged. Please rate
^-^
What scent are you?
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Saturday
More fun than looking at planes.. :wink:
Pimp Name....
Sugartastic Tiger Clinton
lol...[url=]http://www.playerappreciate.c...[/url]
Torrox Square Spain...
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Barts link is to the left..oh but now!..now I figured out how to do it!......so..thats a link..
Taking it Easy...
Ill try and post later maybe..befor I goto bed. I want to thank..
CyberPal
Krazedone
Ratmagic
Shespeicies
anybody else Ive forgotten in my muddled head
thankyou guys for taking the time to comment and I do apreciate it..it lifts me alittle each time. I will go fight me way thru another day!....so...be gentle with me!..(especialy you CyberPal..you and your handcuffs*winks*)
A Treat for CPal...shamless I know
So a little treat..I found this Maroon5 song.
I need a break..back soon tho..cant get rid of me that easy :shock:
Storm
Your still with Me
This pain is just too real
Ive tryed so hard to do this right
My heart tearing, ripping
I cant escape
My head, its spinning, wavering
Oh how I long for relief from torment
I linger in the doorway of reality
I dont want to face the monsters there
Your presence lingers here
My heart won't let you go
Captured, trapped inside your gilded cage
A plaything for you to plunder
Why does my heart ache so?
I dont understand the chaos
Yet I have made my bed
Now I lie in it.
Clare
Hell
I am on the last week of anti-depressents now..Ive been reducing them slowly over the past few months..things are going fine!..apart from these little glitches, Ive got to keep my head up. Its just not easy without some kind of support..M works 12h days..I hardly see him. Not that he would support me..this whole things been going on now for 6 years ever since I had my daughter..Post Natel Depression...I just dont think he understands...how could he?. What would be nice is 'oh im sorry i just cant imagine how your feeling' followed by a hug...*sighs*..that wont happen.
Maybe it would be a good thing to post more...I think it helps..Ill be busy for a couple of days and then ill see.
need to know
Past Life...
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I do not know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.
You were born somewhere around territory of modern Tibet approximately on 1475.
Your profession was artist, magician, fortune teller.
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Your brief psychological profile in that past life:
Bohemian personality, mysterious, highly gifted, capable to understand ancient books. Magician abilities, could be a servant of dark forces.
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Lesson, that your last past life brought to present:
The timid, lonely and self-confident people are everywhere, and your problem -- to overcome these tendencies in yourself and then to help other people.
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Now you remember?
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Stolen from Kraze..who stole from somebody else..I dont know how to do links in here..I apologise..!!
Muse where are you now!...
I need to be inspired...usually by nature, or a person. I have been short on inspiration lately...until today..an old friend....I dont want to say who..has inspired me..so lets hope!..:)
My Favourite Painting...
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Kind of blury because I had to resize it..hehe..
Burning Flame?...hehe

You're Element is Fire. You have a strong,
independant, fiery personality and you
obviously don't ley other's puch you around.
You like being in charge and don't care what
other people think. In fact, you like to stand
out and be yourself. You're probably shy when
people first meet you but your a ball of energy
that could explode at any given moment. You
like to laugh and whether you admit it or not,
you like to fight. You're peronality that is
wild and untamable. You're beauty is physically
fit and a little sexy and you have a very
pretty face.
What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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Fancy a Quickie?
Ha!.I also found out...hmm...1.Rooney is worth 50 million..2..He plays for Everton..3 Hes only 18!..aww bless.
So that was my very educational night! :) I may even watch on Thursday...well if I dont I can certainly hear whats going on. Think every other house in the street had a party lastnight..hehe
On a serious note...who does like Quickies?, Im talking about sex of course!..Which is best Long and slow..or Quick and hard..um..or Long and hard..lol um well I know what I think...All of the above! :wink: [image]TigerLilly_6005270 12.jpg[/image]
Tonights The Night!.....
Actually found I liked the pictures I sent to [u]raggedtigeruk[/u] I even got some cute messages!..lol..from certain people who shall remain anon..*chuckles*..dont know If I should take more..I did let raggy have one more..lol..
Oh its so quiet!..everybody watching the match...a good time for me to get some work done..I just dont know if I can bring myself to do it..seeing as CP broke my heart today :( *sniffs into a tissue*
Im Im Love!...with the man from Tesco!...
I ordered yesterday online paid..and today...right on time the beautiful and kinda sexy :wink: man from Tesco came to bring me my order! Perfectly chilled and fresh and I just cant believe how easy it all is..Thank God For The Net!!
Also!..even better I had no stalker today!..yay!.
*purrs* :wink:
Yeah!...
Strength represents patience and compassion. Getting angry is easy when events turn sour, but dealing calmly with frustration takes great strength. So does accepting others and forgiving mistakes. We need strength to mold situations softly. The Chariot controls through mastery and authority. Card 8 is more subtle, even loving. Notice how the lion (itself a symbol of strength) is being guided and tamed by the woman's gentle hands. For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit LearnTarot.com |
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what The!!...
I looked today out of curiosity..Im at number 45!!..lol...wow...thats great!...How does it work I wonder..no matter Im still thrilled! :P
Zodiac Truth!...its True!!!....
: Your sole purpose in life is to be right all the time, and you constantly change your mind in order to ensure that fact. You have strong opinions that you always change in the face of disapproval. Since you never act on any of your endless declarations, your friends and family quickly learn that your advice is worthless and ignore it, and you.
Your much-touted intellect is merely an inborn talent for knowing fifty ways to say "On the other hand." This endless hemming and hawing is actually an avoidance mechanism designed to protect you from choosing sides or taking action. Libras flee from decision-making faster than a Sagittarius from a commitment ceremony.
You hate vulgar shouting matches and sordid emotional scenes, unless you are the one losing control. Even when angry, you can't act decisively. You deliberate over all the actions you could take and wonder whether you should ignore the incident or go postal. By the time you decide, the person you are mad at has forgotten you exist and moved to Costa Rica.
You are the most social sign in the zodiac and use any excuse to party. That's because without an audience, you bore yourself to sleep. You can, however, intuitively sense when someone needs help. This is extremely convenient considering it gives you plenty of time to rush home and take the phone off the hook to avoid getting involved.
You are as dedicated a social climber as either Aries or Capricorn; however, you have neither Aries' honesty or Cappy's class. But since you haven't the faintest glimmer of self-awareness, you quite cheerfully assume that no one thinks your sudden interest in an eighty-five-year old Lotto winner is odd.
Libra is the sign of the actor, double agent, transvestite, and paid escort. You also make excellent politicians because of your ability to talk out of both sides of your mouth at once.
You are a font of useless minutiae, forever analyzing your problems, like a cow chomping its cud. You treat the people you love like projects and take perverse pleasure in pointing out their faults, then get offended when they tell you to piss off. You play the If Only game. "You have such beautiful eyes. If only you'd lose some weight, we might be able to see them." "You are so kindhearted. If only you had the common sense to match." And you are so shallow that your feelings get hurt if someone skips your party to check in to the hospital for emergency surgery.
Since you inherited Venus' bed-hopping perspective on romance, you have secret affairs with people with whom you wouldn't be caught dead in public. That's OK with you because you're so vain that you rationalize one night with you will magically improve their miserable lot in life. You long for a meaningful relationship, but anything less than blind agreement from the one you love sends you to bed with the nearest stranger. You don't want a partner; you want a clone. Old Libra couples are easy to spot because of their matching hairdos.
However, you are capable of pursuing a goal with a single-minded determination that borders on obsession. Your deeply held beliefs set you apart from the rest of the world. Once you learn to avoid the petty jealousies and soap-opera theatrics in which you frequently indulge, you soon learn that no sign alive can distract you from your dreams
Lookie!
Thankyou Krazedone!...shes so pretty!!...I love her!
Changes...
So I shall continue in my quest for music!..and feed my addiction! :wink:
Tbucks...
Yes..feels good to be me right now.. [image]TigerLilly_7598870 39.gif[/image]
A Hard Job Done...
She said she had noticed and it was on her mind to speak to him about it..and she certainly would talk to him about it now. He wasnt around, probably sulking or embarassed. Well it had to be done..and I feel rather good now it is done!. Keeping everything crossed all goes to plan. :!:
Feeling Patriotic..
Stalker...
When this started he was 15..I know his mother..my kids go to the same school as his little sister. I thought he was funny...and I was flattered..helping me carry stuff, waiting at the school gates every night...but its not funny is it..I hoped after a few weeks he would stop..maybe its a passing crush or something..its been 6 months now.
He turned 16 last month and his attitude changed, more serious. I am NOT..repeat NOT no way encoraging this!...I go different ways to school to avoid him now. The attention eased off as he had his exams. I thought it was cooling off thankfully.
Today tho...he scared me. He walked to school with me and my kids...taking every opotunity to touch me...I hate to say scared...Im 32 afterall..hes just a kid...but hes big..hes taller than me alot taller..its hard to explain.
He grabbed my ass as we walked along and I slapped him in the face..quite hard..I was pretty shocked, I think he was too..he told me to fuck off and went.
Im upset about it..I really dont know what to do. If I say something to his mother she will be angry..he will be embarassed, so I guess I need to talk to him about it.
:oops:
Ironwolfs Quiz

SEXY LADY/ HOT BOY. You are hot, no matter what you
do. There are not much people like you.
Beautiful from inside and outside. The opposite
sex feels pleased with you . They treat you
like a god/goddess. The other ones are jealous
of you because they try to be sexy and
attractive but you are it. Maybe youre a bit
arrogant, or you seem . And some think that
they should better not even try to get a date
with you because your sex appeal scares them.
Sometimes it even nerves you the way they are
running after you.
. You need change-Sometimes you like shy and
sometimes you like extrovert
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.
~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
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:shock:
*Laughs*...Well look at that..its so true!!!!....
| How to make a TigerLilly |
| Ingredients: 3 parts pride 5 parts courage 5 parts beauty |
| Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Serve with a slice of fitness and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com
I couldnt resist!...from Shespecise blog!...what a lucky girl I am!...lol...Im very plaesed..so pleased I cant spell right even!.. :P
Ashamed
Ive nothi n else to say...its just sad
:cry:
Football Widow...
so what to do..hmm...lets see if I can find a nice pic. :)
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LOL!... :wink:
Hungry
Foxy!...
Its hot..still hot and damn it I cant find a decent..bikini..why are all the nice ones made for skinny twigs?..I get the bottoms fit..but the top...lol..well it just dont fit....this is a problem for lots of real women I think..I mean come on!...Real Women have curves you know!! :twisted:
Quiz-O-rama

Faerie:
Faeries are sweet loving beings who love to help
people. They are not held back by reality and
love to dream and fly around. You probably are
very creative and although not the most popular
person in the world you are probably loved by
many for your sweet caring personality.
What Mythological Creature Are You (Many Results and Beautiful Pics)
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Hot!...
Its not that i dont like football..its just that I dont love it!..its such and English obsession tho...I walked the kids to school thismorning having to negotiate my way thru the many flags all over the place...lol..the George Cross...wish it could be like this on St Georges Day tho...I mean every body celebrates paddys day..oh well I think they are talking about making St George's day a national holiday or something :wink:
I cant even sunbathe today!..too hot*sighs*...ill just sit by my fan..lol
England 1..France 2...*sighs*
Its France thats bothering everybody...lol..the english dont like French much...Ive no idea why..must be an old...Nepolian thing..lol :roll:
Harry Potter Quiz..
The shoe one...
You are Barefoot!You're a total free spirit, go with the flow girl You can't be restricted by shoes for very long And unsuprisingly, the same goes for men Your match is out there - and he's as carefree as you are What Shoe Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. | ![]() |
Krazed had this..so did Shespeicies....why am I not suprised about the result!
8) 8)
TigerLilly's Nekkid Pics;)
oh here is the pic...
Well I saw yet another quiz I want to do...these things are addictive..I shall do one more this weekend and then no more for a while. 8)
enjoy the pic..*giggles*
Pixie Trixie..

You aren't a faerie at all! You are a Pixie! You
enjoy tormenting your faerie cousins, or
anything that sparks an interest. Trouble is
your middle name, you love it. You do not know
the meaning of consequences, or you just don't
care. You can play off at being a faerie, you
can be anything you want. Your moods change
from day to day, or minute to minute. For some
reason people like you, or you like people. No
one really knows the answer. You're a mystery
to yourself, but you like mysteries... The
world is your playground, you have fun playing.
What's your inner Faerie?
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got this one from [u]Gentleblackcat [/u]lovely pics
Lazy...
Catch up with my friends too...Andrea wants yet another Tennis rematch...she cant handle loosing...lol :wink:
Topless Mud Wrestling!/Geordi Slapper..lol
And who on earth is that sexy hippy bloke!..Oh my god!..Imma going right now to find out!..Richard maybe...well him and Geordi Slapper had fun in the shower after :wink:
!...

You Are A Sex Kitten!
You enjoy your sexuality and teasing others with your bountiful sexual endowments.
Whether it be your hot, hot body that is just dying to be taken in as many orifices as possible, or your sexually charged personality...
Most are unwilling or unable to pass you by.
They have no self-control once you unleash those primal sexual wiles on them.
And they have no choice but to resist and cry for mommy.
Your ideal career would be that of a porn star, because then everyone (with dick firmly in hand) could celebrate your sex drive.
And you could lose yourself to all the carnal pleasures you've ever wanted.
A sex kitten you shall remain!!
What Sexy Woman Are You?
More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva
Getting it off my chest..
GRR
ANGER!!
hmmph*pouts and sits in the corner*
Quiz mental...lol

Garage rock! I like you... I like you alot! You
and indie are on the same plane for me! You
bring rock'n'roll down to its dirty roots,
whether being minimalist like The White Stripes
or retro like The Strokes. You keep on doing
what you're doing! Oh...and did I mention I
like you alot?
What genre of rock are you?
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hmm.....ok its part right I guess 8)
No Offence!
Just back then...they were so ..cheesey..in my mind anyway :wink:
Long Live Rock and Roll!
So I was thinking how...how can I make my fave songs play on my blog. I know I have to upload them onto a 'host'?..something like that. But I want it so I can change the music to match my mood. Oh and I dont care if anybody says you shouldnt put music on blogs, my blog..so I do what I like !! :shock:
maybe Ill do a list or something...all time fave songs...hmm..think that would be a hard one tho..so many! :wink:
So any ideas...give me a clue!
Kraze quiz thing...

Say Anything...
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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erm..I never heard of this film...so..lol..i dont really get it :wink:
Pictures!...at last..
:P
The Moon...
The week building up to the full moon..for me is hell on earth...she is waxing..i.e.growing fuller and this is how I feel...'creativly'...my ideas build and grow..but I cant get them out. I know no way will I get anything out until that moon is full. Then I usualy endup arguing or throwing a fit..things come to a head. Also getting my period then too...all hell seems to break loose.
Right after the full moon..she wains..grows smaller..then..Oh I can write..its like a dam burst..I can get things done...Im on a high..and abit hyper..kindof...Im like that for a week or so, befor it wears off.
The New moon is great..I feel balanced..relaxed, I can handle things..
Its like as the moon grows..the influence gets stronger somehow. I feel like...like Im taking in all this...energy and stroring it up...then waiting for the release!...yes!..its just like a bloody great orgasm!..LOL
I love the moon..shes like a dear friend...and its great to be able to 'see' how things will be. :lol:
Venus Transit...
The Test!..
(Submissive Introverted Abstract Feeler)
You are a DREAMER (SIAF)— reserved and imaginative. You are basically the shy, silent type. You don't have much interest in facts and figures or most of what's going on around you, but the internal worlds you build for yourself are rich and complex. Luckily, your creativity and strong heart mean you have a deep personality evident to anyone who gets to know you. It's just that not many people do. Talk to yourself less, other people more.
hehe...not sure about that one..yeah ok I am a dreamer..got this off Shespeicies blog...very blond about links and stuff...no Idea how the hell I do them!
Cutie
Just alittle more writing to be done..post something on my other page..AmberTiger..then its off to sunbathe! 8)
Quiz thingy....
Late
Its amazing how much shit can happen to one person. I always do this! I get too close. I open myself up..am too nice, whatever..I cant say no. I hate to let people down and it always leads to trouble, so why dont I learn?. I do the same fucking thing over and over, and the only difference this time is that I see it coming. I cant stop it.
I need to protect myself. The trouble is I cant or wont take my own advise. I KNOW what I need to do, I just cant bring myself to do it. I have no idea what Im doing. Im spinning out of control and it just gets worse.
Last year, I had an afair, it ruined my relationship..well what little we had left it was already on the edge. We talked, we decided to make a go of things..the kids in my mind needed their dad. It was easyer to go along with it. I try, I make an effort, but it does need two, and he has let it all slip.
So what does Clare do?...YES!...she starts another 'relationship'..I fall head over heels in love!..and its all in secret..AGAIN...what a fool. Again the only thing different about this relationship..is the fact that he loves me in a different way. Hes not pushy, we take what time we can and make the most of it, but its getting harder, harder for me to leave him. I miss him desperatly..it hurts.
I have friends, they dont even know. If they did..god knows what they would say. Im struggling and my 'real' partner whom I live with. He doesnt notice, he just doesnt want too. We live like friends now, together for 13 years, but it does get strained. He blames me, my 'moods'. Yes Im moody!!..I have three kids under 6 and feel totaly usless and unneeded by my b/f...so I do get moody!!
What doesnt help is the fact that at the moment Im comming off antidepressants, which I have been on for 6 years on and off. I actually dont feel as bad as I thought I would, I hate being on pills so Im glad to come off them.
Feeling much better now..needed to get all that out I guess :oops:
Last Day!!...thank the gods!
Pictures!
Weekend Highs...and Lows
Lazy sunday followed..nursing my hangover on the local beach while the kids and their dad got covered in sand.
Monday...did start out well, Whitby was great as usual,..must get those pics done. The day was only mared by a moody man!..what else!...after a huge fight I did try not to wrap my fingers around his sunburnt neck and throttle the stupid bas*&%rd.
On the way home we called into Saltburn..pretty too...and Robinhoods Bay..how lucky am I?..Living so close to the sea...all these pretty fishing villages. Even the grey old man(the north sea)..was in a fairly ok mood.
Got back lastnight and couldnt wait to crawl into bed..my 20month old ran non stop with me racing after her all over every spare bit of sand!!..oh and into the sea too..lol.

I am Strength

