Serendipity

Im off out later..I have a good few hours of childfree play today!!..I forgot that the kids had a teachers training day tho..when I made my 'plans'..so my sis now has all three kids..lol..oh poor girl!
20 things nobody knows about me!..purly self self self today..all about ME ME ME

1.  I left school in 1988
2.  My mum was a groupie
3.  My dad was in a band
4.  It was the 60's
5.  I like cold showers
6.  I sometimes spend so long in the shower people come and check to see Im still alive*smirks*
7.  Im addicted to pickled beetroot
8.  At school my nick name was Pixie
9.  I studied Religian at school
10. I thought about becoming a nun
11. Im a Pagan now
12. I believe in Fairies
13. I have seen fairies.
14. I was 9 at the time
15. Im currently..'exploring my innermost fantasies'
16. Im loving every moment
17. I suffer from depression
18. I can be high as a kite one moment then feel like dying the next
19. I have a high sex drive..NOW..it disapeared for a while
20. Im so glad its back*grins*

I been playing with my camera today..its not THAT..complicated.  Took lots of pics...funny tho..because Im such a messy person I never think to tidy up befor I do it..so in this one..which may be massive..you can see how messy my bedroom is..see the various creams and potions on my dresser...lol..my mother would die!!..actually she would die if she only know..some things..anyway changing the subject....

Im surprised its so clear..much better camera than my old one!!!!

I wish it was hot..and sunny..and I could lay out in the garden feeling that warmth. Im cold now..its proper cold...like winter or something!!..*grumbles*..suppose we will get snow next.

Well I found out that things with my sis and her fiance..are finished now..they did try to work things out.
They talked..even tho things were bad they actually still wanted the wedding to go ahead. I think its better this way. How could she ever trust him again?..I mean it was no fling..no crush..it was 8 months of full blown affair!! Its sad..because they were really great together, but..like I said to her..she needs to move on.
They are thinking about selling the house..they have a car they need to sort out..a dog!!..I mean...nothings ever easy..and pets are kind of like kids I guess..I dont know who will take him. My sis is remarkably calm...probably hasnt hit her yet.
Shes like me tho..keeps things to herself. So Im talking to her constantly..dragging little bits of info from her..its hard but she needs to keep talking to somebody. Hope everybody has a lazy day!..oh except those working of course*grins*

wooo!!..great night lastnight!!..party!..well a small one..bonfire!..fireworks..drink!..food!...ahh was lovely..and I was feeling really awful when I woke up tho....thanks to the lovely shiv for waking me up!!..*grins*

I did try and take some piccies of the fireworks..but they kind of came out looking like blurry UFO's...there is a nice one of the fire..Ill put it up later.

The kids all had a great time!...Beccy is only 2 so she didnt really like the bangs...and I dont know how many people celebrate Nov 5..but round here every house has fires..every house has fireworks...there are local displays too soooo..its like the Blitz..the ground shakes!!..I love it.  Now I am not scared but I used to be..I was burned twice as a child by fireworks..and thats with my parents being really carefull!!..just unlucky I guess. 

First we had our own fireworks then we all stood in the street and watched everbody elses..with loads of wine and bangers and mash.  The kids stayed up until after 9pm  they were almost collapsing when I finaly got them to bed..but the bangs and rockets went on all night.  Lovely...

And I have a nice..almost relaxing weekend ahead..great*skips off*

Oh I found this on Sithrats blog!!!!...

Well I did my tiny bit of christmas shopping..its a start ne?  More later*sighs*  I also paid my bills..scrapping what pittence I earned from my nights down the docks*winks*..

M will go back to work in the morning thank the gods!..It freakes me out when hes off work..getting in my way..I think Im used to being alone..or alone with a 2year old all day now.  It works fine for me and I CAN get work done. 
When he is off...well it all goes crappy because hes just 'around'..wanting stuff you know?..'wheres the*insert totaly innane object*? grrrrr...and then I have to play happy wifey..and that is soooo  not me...you have NO idea how hard it is!!!..I feel like I go mad.  Its worse when his days off coincide with me on my way down..which is about now. 
I bite easily....and my bite is much worse than my bark!..and Im no cute doggy I know..infact I really dont know what M is doing here still..he must be mad to put up with my ways and so I give him a speck of credit for that.

Now Im hopping off to catch up on some much needed work.

I was talking to a friend the otherday online.  Hes young...about 17.  Some of the people I know online are young..and they always ask my advice, Im not sure how I feel about this.  Old? lol..hmm..anyway his question..
What Does Love Feel Like?..and
How Do You Know When It Happens?
He thinks hes in love..but he doesnt know..i told him..its different for everybody.  I told him you feel sick, yet your walking with a bounce.  You want to just be with that person every second....you get breathless thinking of them.  Your heart races...and it hurts...love always hurts.  But I told him..thats just how I think it feels for me.  Its different for everybody and the frenzy does gradually fade into a lovely warm simmering glow..but you do still get those moments of heart leaping joy...occasionaly.  But I never really thought..'oh god am I in love?'  I just felt it I guess.  Whats it like for you?

{add on..(because I cant spell addendum)..tomorrow M is off work for 2 days..and I will be christmas shopping..oh joy*tries to look happy*  so if Im not around..or on msn..now you know why!..}

Oh YES!!!..I feel so damn great!..and you know why?..There is alittle shit in my kids school who has been scaring all the kids...making them cry, you know..a really bully in the making!..And he is about 8!..I think I probably bloged about him befor sometime.  How I really wanted to give him a smack..but of course didnt..and how his mother is like...a demon..scary.

Anyway last time I saw him do it to my girls..run up and scream in their faces till they cried..I dared to poke him in the back..he turned around and grinned..yes..grinned!  So I knelt down next to him..went up nice and close and looked him right in the eye...with a most...'desgusted' look on my face I could muster..like I was looking at shit. I said something like..dont you ever..EVER..do that again you silly PATHETIC ...LITTLE..boy..I didnt raise my voice even.  Just waves my hand dismisively and said..go..go away NOW.  He looked gobsmacked.  And he went off.

Now..I hoped he wouldnt do it again.  But thismorning he bloody well DID!!
So this time I remembered the Kung Fu Eyes teaching of that bloke from the telly..Mind Body and Kick Ass moves..lol..yes..I DO watch that!!..I love it. 
Right so I tap him on the shoulder..he turns round, and I say..in a really quiet..but creepy nice voice..'whats your name little one?'...with those scary eyes..you know...wild..lol..he just stares back..I point to his school bag..where his name is..oh look..I say..'now...now I know your name..'  finishing with a pat on the head..'off you go Richard'..he ran like the wind!!"!...ROTFL...oh yes!!...he was scared.   And I was super mom...all the kids smiling at me and the parents too*grins*